Recently.

Sorry for not updating :) Still having the same reason, LACK OF TIME!

Well, just a little update for what's happening in this few days!

Yes, first of all, swimming gala 2011!!!

It is a super fun day for me!! I enjoy myself so much on that day.

New experience eh? That day seladang's cheer was so oh my god!!

Seriously didn't stop until the end of swimming gala!

Seladang spirit!! Go Seladang!! :)

And Seladang won swimming gala too!

Ahsu and I shout like crazy at seladang booth when they announce the result!

I drew it!! EPIC fail I know XD but who cares?

Ahsu you love it right? AHAHA

I really had a lot of fun and I miss it!!!

Too bad it is my last year! :(

Then Tuesday and Wednesday we're having World Maths Day!

I damn failed I know :( My brain rusted already!!

How am I going to sit for SPM ngeh? =\

Okay back to the title!

F5Y11 polygon make it to top 37 in the world :O

I know it is low but then still unbelievable!!!

Cause I saw some of the year11 students was like simply do it.

Keep strike out, didn't do it seriously >.<

I'm kinda mad with it actually but nothing I can do.

So when I see our name, I was like OMG I CAN'T BELIEVE!

Feel sad for him because his group is in top 12.

He can't get a trophy means I cannot snatch the trophy to be mine -.-!

Although the 100 games really kill me but I enjoy it too! :)

Everyone start their preparation for Games Carnival.

I really have to focus on the inter-house dance!

I won't let anything happen when I'm on the stage.
Some more it is my last year, I have to try my best!

Form5 seniors we can make it right? :)

Another excited game is frisbee!!

I worry that I don't have enough stamina to play the game.

Frissbee have to run a lot! AND I MUST BE RUDE! >.<

I'm not afraid to fall, I just afraid that I will implicate my teammates!

Will try my best to help seladang!

Because I know I didn't contribute much for it :(

Yes, after games carnival, I have to focus on my studies.

So far I never revise for Form4 syllabus, NOT AT ALL.

SPM is serious, real serious.

I also have to control myself to stop FB-ing, seriously!

Jiayou Amanda Law!! :)

Fight for your future!!

UPDATE!

GOOD NEWS!!

SELADANG WON!

OH YEAH :)

Go Seladang! :D

Going to swimming gala later! :)

This is my first year but also my last year to join! D8

I'm not a swimmer, NOT AT ALL.

What can I do is cheer as loud as I can! :)

Go Seladang, take it to the top!!

Will update about it, maybe tonight or tomorrow?

It will be a good news! :D

World Maths Day on next Tuesday and Wednesday.

This is the first time I join, AGAIN xD

I'm in polygon group,

but all those math pro in graph group x.x

Nevermind :D Polygon group also can make it to top 10 de ;)

My maths is not really good,

always crack my head because of additional mathematic!

I will try my best de :)

Since this is the first year , and also my last year!

Got to go now, ciao people!

*Hope won't sunburn later! xD*

FML?

我想回去，可是我却回不去。。

我想笑，可是我却在哭。。

我努力做得更好，结果却弄巧拙。。

我讨厌自己。。

刘晓薇，不许哭！

你现在看到的，只不过是现实的开始！

如果你忍受不到，以后怎样去面对丑恶的社会？

你掉眼泪，代表你脆弱！代表你没用！

最重要是爱自己！不能让别人瞧不起你！

自己的尊严是自己建立起来的！

不需要改变自己，

朋友有接受你的一切！

忍耐吧！能做的只有忍耐。。

做人，开心就好嘛！

哭什么叻？对不对？哈哈！

我看不见了，前面是一片黑暗的，

我只能靠自己摸索出去，慢慢地。。

我不会再相信任何人，从此以后。

I wish :(

I really wish that I can delete everything in my mind right now.

I wish that nothing happened before,

I wish that I never asked that question before,

I wish that I'm strong enough to forget everything.

I prefer not to know anything, seriously :(

Anyone brain wash me please?

Everyone is starting to stop me from this.

but nothing I can do right now,

there's no turning back, I guess..?

My heart couldn't take it :'(

My life.

I had a dramatic life.

Sometimes I don't know I should laugh at it or hate it.

Seriously everything is so dramatic,

until some of my friends will thought that I'm creating story myself :(

I'm not okay? >.<

First, let's talk about my family.

I'm a girl who bonds with many rules,

my parents are strict, VERY strict.

I'm like Cinderella, have to go home before 12am.

Oops nope I'm wrong,should be before 10pm I think =\

Worst than Cinderella HAHA.

Then, talk about my friends.

Even all the conflict happened between me and my friends is dramatic too!

Something like, you snatched my boyfriend or you flirt with my crush then we cannot be friends anymore -.-

Oh crap, grow up please?

We're not primary student anymore,

we used to say "I don't want to friend with her and so as you cannot be friend with her too if not I won't friend you anymore!!" or "why you bully me I want to tell teacher and call everyone not to friend you!!" =_______= remember? Okay whatever.

They even have a GANG to anti me, lol childish!

Well, ofcourse I have some BFF too like Carmen, Ahsu and Ah Cheng.

They really will help me for everything no matter what happen.

True friends used to be like this, helping each other all the time!!

Like what wong wong said :)

My love stories are dramatic too!

But I won't talk much about it cause it's all over :)

I realize that, I'm a crazy girl actually -.-

I did something unbelievable when I'm super down yesterday,

and also this afternoon.

I remembered 2 years ago, I wanted to jump down from the upper gym room in Seri Mutiara when something happened.

I'm NOT trying to suicide, I just felt like, that height maybe can make me became OKU.

The reason why I want to be OKU, I think just few of my BFF knows.

Okay I know it's funny but I really put one of leg my outside the window :(

and Gan Yang gor saw it then blocked me from doing that.

Flashback that moment, I'm really stupid.

And don't worry lol, I will never do that anymore haha.

Well today, my tears dropped for the whole day.

I can cry within one second today!

Fulamak maybe I can break the world record? XD!!

And I screwed my history topical test!!

I HATE HISTORY!!!

Okay, I will end my story here,

goodnight, world!

What's the point?

Just now I went crazy, I threw my phone onto the floor.

It separated into few pieces and I'm laughing at it.

Everything is not important for me anymore.

NOT anymore.

My heart is breaking again and again.

What's the point?

Happy Valentine's Day!

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY to everyone!

Wow, this year's valentine is crazy,like super duper crazy!

I had a lot of memories today! :)

Chi Foong and Navian are lovely!

Chi Foong gave each 5Science1 girls a rose and lolipop.

And Navian gave everyone a cupcake LOL!

This is the first time I received huge bear bear, roses and ferrero rocher on Valentine's Day!

Thank you! ♥ ♥ ♥

I think this year is the first year I can feel the Valentine atmosphere :)

Not because I get presents, it's because every of my friend was like nervous for the valentine and don't know what to buy as present LOL

then, the students are being called up to get their present,

so it's like, totally different feel and I like it!!!

I guess I only can feel this at Cempaka school? Government school won't do this I swear!

Too bad it's my last year in school! :(

It's a special day for me. I won't forget about today forever :) ♥

*Cleaning dust*

Nothing much to say.

There's something happy and sad happened recently.

Yeah so this is life :)

I'm trying to reduce stress >.<

Stress made me no appetite to eat, sad case.

I want to grow fat, aim for 40kg this year!!!

Off to sleep, goodnight ♥

人，要学会觉悟

回想起转校前，很多人说生活变了，朋友圈子不同了，话题减少了，朋友之间的感情感情疏远了，人也就会开始变了。当时候的我很生气，气你们不相信我，还信誓旦旦的说我不会变，我永远都是那个你们认识的我！

很可惜的，经过了昨天的聚会，我知道我变了，我融入不了了，我不是你们的一份子了。我知道姐妹们有时会气我爱胡思乱想，甚至钻牛角尖。可是你们不懂我的感受，你们不会了解。你们也会说我活该，是我决定转校的。对！我很后悔，那又怎样？我以为，我们的友情是经得起考验的。

老实告诉你们，愿以为昨天的聚会只叫我熟悉的朋友出来叙旧，吹水。结果叫了一大堆我不认识的人，你们甚至还说，这是你们的班级聚会，我只是你们好心邀请出来的而已。你们说得就开心，有没有想过我？我半年才见你们那么的一次，结果昨天变成了什么局面？我跟不超过十个人说话。哦也对，因为我是多余的:) 我很后悔昨天出席了。我真的很想要和那些熟悉的朋友说话，而且还要你们整天是属于我的那种，而不是让别人抢掉，我连要跟你们说话的机会也没有。我昨天觉得自己很多余，懂吗?

昨天和你们说话，我发现了一道隔膜，除了Carmen和old bean之外，大家都有。或许这边没有粗口连天吧，当有人骂粗口时，我会觉得反感。当很多人一起在说废话时，我竟然想不到任何废话。当大家一起大笑时，我却只牵强地轻轻扬起嘴角而已。这些反应，都不是从前的我了:) 以前就算你们说的废话不好笑，我还能发自内心的笑出来，而昨天呢？我做不到。

我在乎你们，在乎得要命。我们之间的友情曾一度地让我引以为傲，现在它还能继续吗？我承认我变了，变了很多，可是有一件事我不会变，我还在乎你们，就算你们不在在乎我。

昨天我对你很失望，彻底的失望。我知道我的位置被她们俩取代了，就这样吧！

晚安，世界。

Yay it's holiday!

This picture made by my bear bear chai for me! :p Thank you thank you x)

Oh my god finally it' holiday!!! Touched T_T

Everyday rush homeworks,sports and tuitions, I don't know can stand it or not =\

Form 5 life is busier than I imagine.

Yesh, like what miss jo said, once I decide to take 11 subjects,

then I HAVE to fight for all 11 subjects!!

Straight A's dream must come true!!

Got many plans on this CNY :) Meet my mutiara friends.

Tomorrow we will having steamboat like last year! :)

I really hope that I can get along with them since we didn't see each other for quite a long time.

And hope tomorrow will be fun!

Then then, next Tuesday! MIGHT be a disaster for my kitchen.

Krazee JACKSY the sakais wanted to burn my kitchen LOL!

Long time didn't crazy with them, miss them so much >.<

After that next Saturday going to Joey's house also. Take angpau x)!!!

It will be a fun CNY 2011. Hope so :)

First food poisoning in 2011.

I don't understand why I always get food poison -.-

And it will happen every beginning of the year!

Flashback the first time I get food poison,

I skipped my first term exam then I get the last in my class!! >8(

This time is a little bit different because I'm having slightly fever =\

Nowadays many peoples fell sick and I pray that I won't be one of them because CNY is coming!

But seems like I think too much yeah -.-

Yesterday midnight I felt my head is so heavy and dizzy!

It's like the whole world is spinning!

Then I went down to find my mom and she fed me some medicine,

the AWESOME medicine made me vomit once I reached my room!

When I'm really blur, I texted him and don't allow him to school just to accompany me.

*I know I'm childish :( *

He couldn't make it because of him table tennis competition.

first time sleep without air-conditioner but still felt cold!

My sister wake me up on 12.30pm, when I open my eyes, I cried :(

I don't know why, I just cried.

I really wish that his message appear on my handphone's screen!

Hate this kind of feeling.

Wanted to sleep now but I just miss him so much and made me keep crying :(

Hate food poisoning weih!

Tired.

Hey peoples finally I'm back to blogger world :) I couldn't update more because I'm busy with my studies, tuitions, activities and also CNY preparations but who cares? Cause my blog is seriously dead now.

It is just the beginning of the war but I'm tired of it already, tired of form 5! I don't want to face all the homeworks and rushing all of them everyday! I don't want to worry that when is my topical test or SUDDENLY I have to sit for a topical test when I didn't prepare ANYTHING like today =\

I'm a person that will give myself a lot of tensions, it's truth. I will blame myself for not doing well in my examinations or things that I SHOULD try my best to do. I'm trying to relax this few years but I just couldn't make it. Tensions are all around me! I will get nervous easily because of a little thing :( I know in cempaka I shouldn't expect myself to get A's in all subject, pass is more than enough but do you think that I'm really satisfy for my finals last year? I'M NOT and I'm still blaming myself because I didn't put more efforts on my finals.

I realize that I didn't laugh as much as I do like I'm still in mutiara nowadays. It's like the things that can make me laugh is lesser and lesser. How long I didn't laugh until stomuchache and hardly breathe? I used to laugh like this everyday in mutiara but why not in cempaka? :( I admit that cempaka is not belong to my world. Maybe I can't communicate with rich peoples or I'm not used to it yet. I like to laugh crazily, in mutiarans' eyes I'm just a funny girl but in cempakans' eyes, maybe I'm a bitch or crazy girl or whatsoever already.

亲爱的母亲大人说，被一个人讨厌就代表自己有能力所以才会令人产生妒忌 :)

所以刘晓薇！你要相信自己是有能力的！

如果那一丁点小风雨就能把你打倒，以后怎样出来面对大大大大风暴呢？

Form 5 :)

Hi guys, after four days of school, finally I'm here to update my bloggie.
Form 5 life, what to say? Hectic and headache.
First day of school is really oh my god!
Science 1 is so quiet compared with science 2!
I'm not used to it yet, I never get into such a quiet class before!
I miss science 2 badly =\
three of us always go to science 2 during our lunch time!
Well, not to say science 1 is a bad class,
They are friendly and smart :)
But as you know, I'm a super talkative girl, I cannot stay in such quiet class.
Requested to drop class but failed =(
Yesterday we had our house meeting, I really had a lot of fun!
Since most of my science 2 friends in seladang,
So I spent most of my time with them, crapping and playing :)
By the way, I joined quite a lot of activities this year.
Frisbee! Inter-house dance competition! Table tennis!
P/s : I don't know how to play table tennis at all :p
I'm so crazy ya know :D cause mutiara didn't offer all these games.
Last year of secondary life, I don't want to miss out anything!


I guess next week onwards I will be very busy bah.
After school having lots of activities, then go tution, home works and so on.
Have to start my moral projects also.
I did't do anything last year :'(


Considering to drop accounts or not.
Learnt it for one years, don't feel like dropping,
But my time is fully packed sigh!
Beside this, I need to do my Mandarin oral test outside wth?
Why school don't offer Mandarin oral test?
Seriously is that so difficult for me to take mandarin for SPM?

I'm so tired! Physically and mentally.
It's just forth day of school! Still got a long way to go!

Happy New Year~ :)

This is the first time I went for countdown in my life :p

Not with friends, is with my aunt, uncle and a bunch of small kids yo!

Last minute decide to go sunway pyramid to countdown.

Kinda fun although we just stay there for a while.

Bought fake snow spray that made all of us laughed and played like crazy.

Jie don't wanna join us, too bad =\

I didn't waste 2010, I did put a lot of efforts on everything for this year.

2011, my SPM year finally came.

For SPM, I wanna get straight A's, no joke.

I really hope that I can concentrate and score all the subjects.

Amanda Law Siew Wei, please don't be lazy!!

Fight for it, to get a better result for your future! =]

My friend, I don't wanna lose you, you know that right?

I always felt that I'm a lucky girl!

Because I found my heart-to-heart friend when I'm 13!

Some people maybe don't have a friend like this in their lifetime.

I know sorry no cure, it's my life, I live my life,

but you're part of my life, I really need you!