人，要学会觉悟

回想起转校前，很多人说生活变了，朋友圈子不同了，话题减少了，朋友之间的感情感情疏远了，人也就会开始变了。当时候的我很生气，气你们不相信我，还信誓旦旦的说我不会变，我永远都是那个你们认识的我！

很可惜的，经过了昨天的聚会，我知道我变了，我融入不了了，我不是你们的一份子了。我知道姐妹们有时会气我爱胡思乱想，甚至钻牛角尖。可是你们不懂我的感受，你们不会了解。你们也会说我活该，是我决定转校的。对！我很后悔，那又怎样？我以为，我们的友情是经得起考验的。

老实告诉你们，愿以为昨天的聚会只叫我熟悉的朋友出来叙旧，吹水。结果叫了一大堆我不认识的人，你们甚至还说，这是你们的班级聚会，我只是你们好心邀请出来的而已。你们说得就开心，有没有想过我？我半年才见你们那么的一次，结果昨天变成了什么局面？我跟不超过十个人说话。哦也对，因为我是多余的:) 我很后悔昨天出席了。我真的很想要和那些熟悉的朋友说话，而且还要你们整天是属于我的那种，而不是让别人抢掉，我连要跟你们说话的机会也没有。我昨天觉得自己很多余，懂吗?

昨天和你们说话，我发现了一道隔膜，除了Carmen和old bean之外，大家都有。或许这边没有粗口连天吧，当有人骂粗口时，我会觉得反感。当很多人一起在说废话时，我竟然想不到任何废话。当大家一起大笑时，我却只牵强地轻轻扬起嘴角而已。这些反应，都不是从前的我了:) 以前就算你们说的废话不好笑，我还能发自内心的笑出来，而昨天呢？我做不到。

我在乎你们，在乎得要命。我们之间的友情曾一度地让我引以为傲，现在它还能继续吗？我承认我变了，变了很多，可是有一件事我不会变，我还在乎你们，就算你们不在在乎我。

昨天我对你很失望，彻底的失望。我知道我的位置被她们俩取代了，就这样吧！

晚安，世界。

Yay it's holiday!

This picture made by my bear bear chai for me! :p Thank you thank you x)

Oh my god finally it' holiday!!! Touched T_T

Everyday rush homeworks,sports and tuitions, I don't know can stand it or not =\

Form 5 life is busier than I imagine.

Yesh, like what miss jo said, once I decide to take 11 subjects,

then I HAVE to fight for all 11 subjects!!

Straight A's dream must come true!!

Got many plans on this CNY :) Meet my mutiara friends.

Tomorrow we will having steamboat like last year! :)

I really hope that I can get along with them since we didn't see each other for quite a long time.

And hope tomorrow will be fun!

Then then, next Tuesday! MIGHT be a disaster for my kitchen.

Krazee JACKSY the sakais wanted to burn my kitchen LOL!

Long time didn't crazy with them, miss them so much >.<

After that next Saturday going to Joey's house also. Take angpau x)!!!

It will be a fun CNY 2011. Hope so :)

First food poisoning in 2011.

I don't understand why I always get food poison -.-

And it will happen every beginning of the year!

Flashback the first time I get food poison,

I skipped my first term exam then I get the last in my class!! >8(

This time is a little bit different because I'm having slightly fever =\

Nowadays many peoples fell sick and I pray that I won't be one of them because CNY is coming!

But seems like I think too much yeah -.-

Yesterday midnight I felt my head is so heavy and dizzy!

It's like the whole world is spinning!

Then I went down to find my mom and she fed me some medicine,

the AWESOME medicine made me vomit once I reached my room!

When I'm really blur, I texted him and don't allow him to school just to accompany me.

*I know I'm childish :( *

He couldn't make it because of him table tennis competition.

first time sleep without air-conditioner but still felt cold!

My sister wake me up on 12.30pm, when I open my eyes, I cried :(

I don't know why, I just cried.

I really wish that his message appear on my handphone's screen!

Hate this kind of feeling.

Wanted to sleep now but I just miss him so much and made me keep crying :(

Hate food poisoning weih!

Tired.

Hey peoples finally I'm back to blogger world :) I couldn't update more because I'm busy with my studies, tuitions, activities and also CNY preparations but who cares? Cause my blog is seriously dead now.

It is just the beginning of the war but I'm tired of it already, tired of form 5! I don't want to face all the homeworks and rushing all of them everyday! I don't want to worry that when is my topical test or SUDDENLY I have to sit for a topical test when I didn't prepare ANYTHING like today =\

I'm a person that will give myself a lot of tensions, it's truth. I will blame myself for not doing well in my examinations or things that I SHOULD try my best to do. I'm trying to relax this few years but I just couldn't make it. Tensions are all around me! I will get nervous easily because of a little thing :( I know in cempaka I shouldn't expect myself to get A's in all subject, pass is more than enough but do you think that I'm really satisfy for my finals last year? I'M NOT and I'm still blaming myself because I didn't put more efforts on my finals.

I realize that I didn't laugh as much as I do like I'm still in mutiara nowadays. It's like the things that can make me laugh is lesser and lesser. How long I didn't laugh until stomuchache and hardly breathe? I used to laugh like this everyday in mutiara but why not in cempaka? :( I admit that cempaka is not belong to my world. Maybe I can't communicate with rich peoples or I'm not used to it yet. I like to laugh crazily, in mutiarans' eyes I'm just a funny girl but in cempakans' eyes, maybe I'm a bitch or crazy girl or whatsoever already.

亲爱的母亲大人说，被一个人讨厌就代表自己有能力所以才会令人产生妒忌 :)

所以刘晓薇！你要相信自己是有能力的！

如果那一丁点小风雨就能把你打倒，以后怎样出来面对大大大大风暴呢？

Form 5 :)

Hi guys, after four days of school, finally I'm here to update my bloggie.
Form 5 life, what to say? Hectic and headache.
First day of school is really oh my god!
Science 1 is so quiet compared with science 2!
I'm not used to it yet, I never get into such a quiet class before!
I miss science 2 badly =\
three of us always go to science 2 during our lunch time!
Well, not to say science 1 is a bad class,
They are friendly and smart :)
But as you know, I'm a super talkative girl, I cannot stay in such quiet class.
Requested to drop class but failed =(
Yesterday we had our house meeting, I really had a lot of fun!
Since most of my science 2 friends in seladang,
So I spent most of my time with them, crapping and playing :)
By the way, I joined quite a lot of activities this year.
Frisbee! Inter-house dance competition! Table tennis!
P/s : I don't know how to play table tennis at all :p
I'm so crazy ya know :D cause mutiara didn't offer all these games.
Last year of secondary life, I don't want to miss out anything!


I guess next week onwards I will be very busy bah.
After school having lots of activities, then go tution, home works and so on.
Have to start my moral projects also.
I did't do anything last year :'(


Considering to drop accounts or not.
Learnt it for one years, don't feel like dropping,
But my time is fully packed sigh!
Beside this, I need to do my Mandarin oral test outside wth?
Why school don't offer Mandarin oral test?
Seriously is that so difficult for me to take mandarin for SPM?

I'm so tired! Physically and mentally.
It's just forth day of school! Still got a long way to go!

Happy New Year~ :)

This is the first time I went for countdown in my life :p

Not with friends, is with my aunt, uncle and a bunch of small kids yo!

Last minute decide to go sunway pyramid to countdown.

Kinda fun although we just stay there for a while.

Bought fake snow spray that made all of us laughed and played like crazy.

Jie don't wanna join us, too bad =\

I didn't waste 2010, I did put a lot of efforts on everything for this year.

2011, my SPM year finally came.

For SPM, I wanna get straight A's, no joke.

I really hope that I can concentrate and score all the subjects.

Amanda Law Siew Wei, please don't be lazy!!

Fight for it, to get a better result for your future! =]

My friend, I don't wanna lose you, you know that right?

I always felt that I'm a lucky girl!

Because I found my heart-to-heart friend when I'm 13!

Some people maybe don't have a friend like this in their lifetime.

I know sorry no cure, it's my life, I live my life,

but you're part of my life, I really need you!