UPDATE!

GOOD NEWS!!

SELADANG WON!

OH YEAH :)

Go Seladang! :D

Going to swimming gala later! :)

This is my first year but also my last year to join! D8

I'm not a swimmer, NOT AT ALL.

What can I do is cheer as loud as I can! :)

Go Seladang, take it to the top!!

Will update about it, maybe tonight or tomorrow?

It will be a good news! :D

World Maths Day on next Tuesday and Wednesday.

This is the first time I join, AGAIN xD

I'm in polygon group,

but all those math pro in graph group x.x

Nevermind :D Polygon group also can make it to top 10 de ;)

My maths is not really good,

always crack my head because of additional mathematic!

I will try my best de :)

Since this is the first year , and also my last year!

Got to go now, ciao people!

*Hope won't sunburn later! xD*

FML?

我想回去，可是我却回不去。。

我想笑，可是我却在哭。。

我努力做得更好，结果却弄巧拙。。

我讨厌自己。。

刘晓薇，不许哭！

你现在看到的，只不过是现实的开始！

如果你忍受不到，以后怎样去面对丑恶的社会？

你掉眼泪，代表你脆弱！代表你没用！

最重要是爱自己！不能让别人瞧不起你！

自己的尊严是自己建立起来的！

不需要改变自己，

朋友有接受你的一切！

忍耐吧！能做的只有忍耐。。

做人，开心就好嘛！

哭什么叻？对不对？哈哈！

我看不见了，前面是一片黑暗的，

我只能靠自己摸索出去，慢慢地。。

我不会再相信任何人，从此以后。

I wish :(

I really wish that I can delete everything in my mind right now.

I wish that nothing happened before,

I wish that I never asked that question before,

I wish that I'm strong enough to forget everything.

I prefer not to know anything, seriously :(

Anyone brain wash me please?

Everyone is starting to stop me from this.

but nothing I can do right now,

there's no turning back, I guess..?

My heart couldn't take it :'(

My life.

I had a dramatic life.

Sometimes I don't know I should laugh at it or hate it.

Seriously everything is so dramatic,

until some of my friends will thought that I'm creating story myself :(

I'm not okay? >.<

First, let's talk about my family.

I'm a girl who bonds with many rules,

my parents are strict, VERY strict.

I'm like Cinderella, have to go home before 12am.

Oops nope I'm wrong,should be before 10pm I think =\

Worst than Cinderella HAHA.

Then, talk about my friends.

Even all the conflict happened between me and my friends is dramatic too!

Something like, you snatched my boyfriend or you flirt with my crush then we cannot be friends anymore -.-

Oh crap, grow up please?

We're not primary student anymore,

we used to say "I don't want to friend with her and so as you cannot be friend with her too if not I won't friend you anymore!!" or "why you bully me I want to tell teacher and call everyone not to friend you!!" =_______= remember? Okay whatever.

They even have a GANG to anti me, lol childish!

Well, ofcourse I have some BFF too like Carmen, Ahsu and Ah Cheng.

They really will help me for everything no matter what happen.

True friends used to be like this, helping each other all the time!!

Like what wong wong said :)

My love stories are dramatic too!

But I won't talk much about it cause it's all over :)

I realize that, I'm a crazy girl actually -.-

I did something unbelievable when I'm super down yesterday,

and also this afternoon.

I remembered 2 years ago, I wanted to jump down from the upper gym room in Seri Mutiara when something happened.

I'm NOT trying to suicide, I just felt like, that height maybe can make me became OKU.

The reason why I want to be OKU, I think just few of my BFF knows.

Okay I know it's funny but I really put one of leg my outside the window :(

and Gan Yang gor saw it then blocked me from doing that.

Flashback that moment, I'm really stupid.

And don't worry lol, I will never do that anymore haha.

Well today, my tears dropped for the whole day.

I can cry within one second today!

Fulamak maybe I can break the world record? XD!!

And I screwed my history topical test!!

I HATE HISTORY!!!

Okay, I will end my story here,

goodnight, world!

What's the point?

Just now I went crazy, I threw my phone onto the floor.

It separated into few pieces and I'm laughing at it.

Everything is not important for me anymore.

NOT anymore.

My heart is breaking again and again.

What's the point?

Happy Valentine's Day!

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY to everyone!

Wow, this year's valentine is crazy,like super duper crazy!

I had a lot of memories today! :)

Chi Foong and Navian are lovely!

Chi Foong gave each 5Science1 girls a rose and lolipop.

And Navian gave everyone a cupcake LOL!

This is the first time I received huge bear bear, roses and ferrero rocher on Valentine's Day!

Thank you! ♥ ♥ ♥

I think this year is the first year I can feel the Valentine atmosphere :)

Not because I get presents, it's because every of my friend was like nervous for the valentine and don't know what to buy as present LOL

then, the students are being called up to get their present,

so it's like, totally different feel and I like it!!!

I guess I only can feel this at Cempaka school? Government school won't do this I swear!

Too bad it's my last year in school! :(

It's a special day for me. I won't forget about today forever :) ♥

*Cleaning dust*

Nothing much to say.

There's something happy and sad happened recently.

Yeah so this is life :)

I'm trying to reduce stress >.<

Stress made me no appetite to eat, sad case.

I want to grow fat, aim for 40kg this year!!!

Off to sleep, goodnight ♥

人，要学会觉悟

回想起转校前，很多人说生活变了，朋友圈子不同了，话题减少了，朋友之间的感情感情疏远了，人也就会开始变了。当时候的我很生气，气你们不相信我，还信誓旦旦的说我不会变，我永远都是那个你们认识的我！

很可惜的，经过了昨天的聚会，我知道我变了，我融入不了了，我不是你们的一份子了。我知道姐妹们有时会气我爱胡思乱想，甚至钻牛角尖。可是你们不懂我的感受，你们不会了解。你们也会说我活该，是我决定转校的。对！我很后悔，那又怎样？我以为，我们的友情是经得起考验的。

老实告诉你们，愿以为昨天的聚会只叫我熟悉的朋友出来叙旧，吹水。结果叫了一大堆我不认识的人，你们甚至还说，这是你们的班级聚会，我只是你们好心邀请出来的而已。你们说得就开心，有没有想过我？我半年才见你们那么的一次，结果昨天变成了什么局面？我跟不超过十个人说话。哦也对，因为我是多余的:) 我很后悔昨天出席了。我真的很想要和那些熟悉的朋友说话，而且还要你们整天是属于我的那种，而不是让别人抢掉，我连要跟你们说话的机会也没有。我昨天觉得自己很多余，懂吗?

昨天和你们说话，我发现了一道隔膜，除了Carmen和old bean之外，大家都有。或许这边没有粗口连天吧，当有人骂粗口时，我会觉得反感。当很多人一起在说废话时，我竟然想不到任何废话。当大家一起大笑时，我却只牵强地轻轻扬起嘴角而已。这些反应，都不是从前的我了:) 以前就算你们说的废话不好笑，我还能发自内心的笑出来，而昨天呢？我做不到。

我在乎你们，在乎得要命。我们之间的友情曾一度地让我引以为傲，现在它还能继续吗？我承认我变了，变了很多，可是有一件事我不会变，我还在乎你们，就算你们不在在乎我。

昨天我对你很失望，彻底的失望。我知道我的位置被她们俩取代了，就这样吧！

晚安，世界。

Yay it's holiday!

This picture made by my bear bear chai for me! :p Thank you thank you x)

Oh my god finally it' holiday!!! Touched T_T

Everyday rush homeworks,sports and tuitions, I don't know can stand it or not =\

Form 5 life is busier than I imagine.

Yesh, like what miss jo said, once I decide to take 11 subjects,

then I HAVE to fight for all 11 subjects!!

Straight A's dream must come true!!

Got many plans on this CNY :) Meet my mutiara friends.

Tomorrow we will having steamboat like last year! :)

I really hope that I can get along with them since we didn't see each other for quite a long time.

And hope tomorrow will be fun!

Then then, next Tuesday! MIGHT be a disaster for my kitchen.

Krazee JACKSY the sakais wanted to burn my kitchen LOL!

Long time didn't crazy with them, miss them so much >.<

After that next Saturday going to Joey's house also. Take angpau x)!!!

It will be a fun CNY 2011. Hope so :)

First food poisoning in 2011.

I don't understand why I always get food poison -.-

And it will happen every beginning of the year!

Flashback the first time I get food poison,

I skipped my first term exam then I get the last in my class!! >8(

This time is a little bit different because I'm having slightly fever =\

Nowadays many peoples fell sick and I pray that I won't be one of them because CNY is coming!

But seems like I think too much yeah -.-

Yesterday midnight I felt my head is so heavy and dizzy!

It's like the whole world is spinning!

Then I went down to find my mom and she fed me some medicine,

the AWESOME medicine made me vomit once I reached my room!

When I'm really blur, I texted him and don't allow him to school just to accompany me.

*I know I'm childish :( *

He couldn't make it because of him table tennis competition.

first time sleep without air-conditioner but still felt cold!

My sister wake me up on 12.30pm, when I open my eyes, I cried :(

I don't know why, I just cried.

I really wish that his message appear on my handphone's screen!

Hate this kind of feeling.

Wanted to sleep now but I just miss him so much and made me keep crying :(

Hate food poisoning weih!

Tired.

Hey peoples finally I'm back to blogger world :) I couldn't update more because I'm busy with my studies, tuitions, activities and also CNY preparations but who cares? Cause my blog is seriously dead now.

It is just the beginning of the war but I'm tired of it already, tired of form 5! I don't want to face all the homeworks and rushing all of them everyday! I don't want to worry that when is my topical test or SUDDENLY I have to sit for a topical test when I didn't prepare ANYTHING like today =\

I'm a person that will give myself a lot of tensions, it's truth. I will blame myself for not doing well in my examinations or things that I SHOULD try my best to do. I'm trying to relax this few years but I just couldn't make it. Tensions are all around me! I will get nervous easily because of a little thing :( I know in cempaka I shouldn't expect myself to get A's in all subject, pass is more than enough but do you think that I'm really satisfy for my finals last year? I'M NOT and I'm still blaming myself because I didn't put more efforts on my finals.

I realize that I didn't laugh as much as I do like I'm still in mutiara nowadays. It's like the things that can make me laugh is lesser and lesser. How long I didn't laugh until stomuchache and hardly breathe? I used to laugh like this everyday in mutiara but why not in cempaka? :( I admit that cempaka is not belong to my world. Maybe I can't communicate with rich peoples or I'm not used to it yet. I like to laugh crazily, in mutiarans' eyes I'm just a funny girl but in cempakans' eyes, maybe I'm a bitch or crazy girl or whatsoever already.

亲爱的母亲大人说，被一个人讨厌就代表自己有能力所以才会令人产生妒忌 :)

所以刘晓薇！你要相信自己是有能力的！

如果那一丁点小风雨就能把你打倒，以后怎样出来面对大大大大风暴呢？

Form 5 :)

Hi guys, after four days of school, finally I'm here to update my bloggie.
Form 5 life, what to say? Hectic and headache.
First day of school is really oh my god!
Science 1 is so quiet compared with science 2!
I'm not used to it yet, I never get into such a quiet class before!
I miss science 2 badly =\
three of us always go to science 2 during our lunch time!
Well, not to say science 1 is a bad class,
They are friendly and smart :)
But as you know, I'm a super talkative girl, I cannot stay in such quiet class.
Requested to drop class but failed =(
Yesterday we had our house meeting, I really had a lot of fun!
Since most of my science 2 friends in seladang,
So I spent most of my time with them, crapping and playing :)
By the way, I joined quite a lot of activities this year.
Frisbee! Inter-house dance competition! Table tennis!
P/s : I don't know how to play table tennis at all :p
I'm so crazy ya know :D cause mutiara didn't offer all these games.
Last year of secondary life, I don't want to miss out anything!


I guess next week onwards I will be very busy bah.
After school having lots of activities, then go tution, home works and so on.
Have to start my moral projects also.
I did't do anything last year :'(


Considering to drop accounts or not.
Learnt it for one years, don't feel like dropping,
But my time is fully packed sigh!
Beside this, I need to do my Mandarin oral test outside wth?
Why school don't offer Mandarin oral test?
Seriously is that so difficult for me to take mandarin for SPM?

I'm so tired! Physically and mentally.
It's just forth day of school! Still got a long way to go!

Happy New Year~ :)

This is the first time I went for countdown in my life :p

Not with friends, is with my aunt, uncle and a bunch of small kids yo!

Last minute decide to go sunway pyramid to countdown.

Kinda fun although we just stay there for a while.

Bought fake snow spray that made all of us laughed and played like crazy.

Jie don't wanna join us, too bad =\

I didn't waste 2010, I did put a lot of efforts on everything for this year.

2011, my SPM year finally came.

For SPM, I wanna get straight A's, no joke.

I really hope that I can concentrate and score all the subjects.

Amanda Law Siew Wei, please don't be lazy!!

Fight for it, to get a better result for your future! =]

My friend, I don't wanna lose you, you know that right?

I always felt that I'm a lucky girl!

Because I found my heart-to-heart friend when I'm 13!

Some people maybe don't have a friend like this in their lifetime.

I know sorry no cure, it's my life, I live my life,

but you're part of my life, I really need you!

Bye 2010

Time flies, it’s time to say goodbye to 2010, my Form 4 year!

In this year, I did learnt a lot of things, gained a lot of experiences, knew a lot of new friends, learnt how to forgive and forget, learnt how to be the REAL ME and most importantly, I learnt how to differentiate human’s personality and also, finally I saw and felt the REAL WORLD.

4th of January, the first day of school. I’m in 4Science2 this year since I get 7A’s1B for my PMR result! X) Together with Carmen *as usual-.-*, Zhen En, Kok Hoong, Joey, Yuan. Kinda sad cause most of my 3C gang in 4Science4 or 4Science5 :( Yeah, first day of school, we having our assembly in the hall!! There’s a “prize giving ceremony” for students who get good result for PMR in 2009. I remember I received a lousy certificate for my PMR result on this day haha!
As usual, busy for SPBT works for few days. In this year, Weng Wah aka my lai old bean, Kok Dong aka Da Dong, Adrian, Wai Chee, Lek Hsien aka xiao hsien hsien and many of my gang members joined SPBT! Seriously we had a lot a lot a lot a lot of fun and laughter while we’re working!!! Then, when we’re free, we will not stop crapping, gossiping, camwhoring and playing! I don’t know you guys are what kind of human being, I just know I had a lot of fun with you guys! Fooling around in SPBT room, I love you guys!!

Ofcourse I won’t forget about my aerobic team 2010!

Actually, this batch made me headache =\ Hey my dear members! Don’t mind if I say it out :) All the members are not cooperate at all :( Except my assistant, Carmen Hor! *claps* They won’t care about the attendance, they won’t listen to me when I tried my best to teach them, I even shouted to them just want them to listen to me –sigh!- And lastly, I cried stupid Tan Yi Heng and Hwang Jie were not serious in the dance at all, no matter how I talk to them :( And I nearly gave up on Chai Bear Bear, none of us willing to teach him, pity him LOL! Luckily he got put effort and practice :) Actually I’m so proud of your performance after the Chinese New Year holiday! Seriously, without Gan Yang gor, I failed max to be a leader D8!

Lastly, I’m glad that you all tried your best to perform on the real day, thanks for putting all the efforts on this dance so that I won’t felt shame to be the leader. I do appreciate it!! THANK YOU VERY MUCHIE AND LOVE YOU GUYS! Next year we don’t have the chance to perform already, thanks aerobic team 2010!!

Next, is my lovely choir. I can't find choir picture, don't know why =\ I joined choir since Form1 until I transferred :) Do you know how much I miss you guys? I miss the moment we practice together, I miss the moment we performed on the same stage together. I miss the moment we went for competition, I miss the moment we playing and crapping together, I miss the moment we playing games, I miss the moment bullying juniors, I miss the moment we played “wasabilibili”, I miss the moment Pn. Tee want me to do works, I miss the moment disturbing everyone, I miss the moment Yu Xin jie scolded me!!!! I remembered, once I stepped into choir room, I will be a super duper hyper girl and keep disturbing everyone until Yu Xin Jie or Yi Vonn scolded me. I will get excited once I heard there’s a practice or a performance. Seriously, choir is a place that can make me happy.

I remembered Carmen said she wanted to make bookmark for seniors, I wanted to make too!! I still want to do something for choir but end up I cannot make it because I got my own thing to do in Cempaka. Last day of school in Mutiara, I’m having last performance with choir members. I wish the time can slow down, so that I can spend more time on the stage with them. Most importantly, choir taught me how to be cooperate and tolerant :)

I’m so proud to be one of the choir member in SMK Seri Mutiara. I won’t forget all the memories in the choir room and also with my dear choir members. 一天是歌咏队员，永远都是歌咏队员！Tears dropped. Seriously, I miss you guys!

Then, very important punya!! Krazee JACKS formed in this year! I never thought that I will be having a dancing crew before this! I also never thought that I will be having so many comrades!! Although we lose the competition but I still proud of ourselves! At least, I got more besties, Joey and Stacey :) Before this competition, I really don’t know both of you much. After the competition, we are getting closer to each other and we will gather together always! No worries babes! I believe that we still got a lot of chances to go for competition and I hope you guys won’t mind because I’m the most cacat-ed among you guys =\

Well well well, High School Musical My School Rock competition, a good and memoriable experience! As bear said, Krazee JACKS gained 5 points exp for this competition!! Thanks for our supporters! Seriously thank you weih! Purposely come and support us and also didn’t complain cause we changed the time suddenly. I felt so touched when I see Qiao, Bean, Da Dong, Adrian they all. I miss them so much leh hehe!!

After that, krazee JACKS changed to krazee JACKYS le. Pity Stacey, still be the last one LOL!! I’m so sad because I couldn’t join the performance in school with them! I’m having my finals T__T. After that performance, I believe krazee JACKS gained 5 more exp!!! Girls! We got 10 exp already :) No matter what happen, I want to be with you all, okay? Win or lose doesn’t matter, we enjoyed the moment on stage, we performed the best, that is more than enough! Best friend forever! Love you girls! Jia you!!

Thanks a lot for my friends who give me a surprise party for my sweet 16^th birthday!!! Unforgettable memory in my life! Guess what? Not everyone will have their surprise party in their entire life but I get it on my 16^th birthday! Special thanks to my best friend, Carmen Hor, the organizer!! Flashback the moment you guys throw all the balloons to me, all the faces with your own specific masks, the moment I walked into Neway room and heard happy birthday song, old bean and Wei Hoe suddenly appear but before that you guys told me that they couldn’t come! :) Many surprises in one day! My tears still drop when I told my aunt the story again in the next day. Damn touched! I truly have a lot of friends that really really love me!! Thanks for the surprise party. I swear I won’t forget about it!!

Now, JENG JENG, let’s talk about my new school! Sri Cempaka. This school gave me many new experiences and I met many new friends too :D I remembered Marcus is the first person I talked with in the first day. Then, I started to mix up with Ahsu, Ah Cheng and Ca Mun. We talked, we crapped, we gossiped, I always enjoy our conversations. Then, Sher Win invited me to join fan dance! My first performance in this school. Actually I thought I won’t get a chance to stand on cempaka’s stage because I’m a super-late comer. However, I performed on the stage for four times!! Month by month, I’m getting closer with Ahsu and Ah Cheng! I will tell them everything when I’m super sad and they will find solutions for me. Thanks for take caring me in this half year, thanks for standing by my side, supporting me no matter what happen, thanks for trusting me although we know each other only a short period, thanks for forgiving me for all the troubles that I caused. THANK YOU AND LOVE YOU! ;)

Before school ends, something happened. Thanks for the friends that believe me especially Ahsu and Ah Cheng :) I think this is the difference between government school and private school, like to create war because of little things. I seriously don’t understand. I miss my previous school badly, at there we won’t have a war like this, we insult each other for fun but nobody will angry easily, we’re poor but we will share everything, we won’t separate into many gang, we just like one family!! It’s impossible for me to transfer back now. I will stop bothering all these things next year and concentrate on my studies. Yeah, another war, SPM next year! Listen up 4Science2! Although I’m a later comer but some of you treat me as a good friend! Thank you. Next year we’re in different classes already but I hope our friendship will last forever, must talk with me yeah, love you guys.

Most importantly, I met someone that changed my life. Thanks for staying by my side no matter what happen :) 1912 ♥ :8)

It’s time to end this post. Bye 2010, I will miss you!! I learnt a lot and gain more experiences in this year. Hope it will be a better year for me in 2011.

Ciao people :)